Yesterday a dear lady met me in the grocery store in Dalmeny and asked, "Is it really true that Doug is gone?" Why yes, dear lady, he is dead. Answer her questions, don't cry, finish shopping, act 'ok', go home and keep going. While I am able to do the motions of continuing with life, my being is still sad. These last few nights, the moon has been shining so brightly in my bedroom window. Delaney says it's a nightlight, and it is lovely. It also makes me melancholy and lonely. Is heaven up there, past the stars and the moon? Is there beautiful nature that Doug enjoyed so very much? Can he see my tears, and know how much I miss him? No answers until heaven, but questions continue to swirl around me. and yes, it is true that Doug is gone.